Najma's Notebook

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Agenda

In life I have no agenda

To Allah I only surrender

In the company of the awliya, the muqarabeen

That’s where I’d like to be seen

My family, friends and clan I’d like to see

If in that company they will be

With great granddad maulana Ishaaq

I’d like to be buried and raised Oh Razaaq

Joy comes form having no agenda

Only Allah, nothing could be grander

If only I can abide by that covenant

No better return no better dividend

Happiness defined by the bigger picture

Thoughts of akhirah as in the scripture

In sabr and amal e saleha –spend the time

Allah will ensure muck and worry is left behind

No ego or self in any agenda

Leaves the heart pure and tender

All around are callings, pamper the self

When Allah says – watch, control yourself

The nafs in line with the ruh

Keep it in check with a glue

Rancour, resentment kept at bay

With Audho – keep Shaytan from leading us astray

The beauty of having no agenda

Clears the horizon, to dwell on Allah’s splendour

Needs and wants evaporate as mist

If of core values we all get the gist

True desires deal with the akhirah

The company of those to meet in jannah

My great granddad’s coat I’d like to hold

As grace and rahmah on him unfolds

Is having no agenda so hard to believe

Does the world and worry have to be up my sleeve

Does it mean I’m not at peace

If I’m in service ready to appease

Do western parameters define my condition

Tawheed and taqwa eyed with suspicion

Serenity comes with zikr-ullah

Abide by that for true falaah

In the footsteps of my great granddad I’d like to be

From the dunya I love to be free

Ability to instantly change gears

Only to the One – in sajdah, his displeasure fear

Best joy when I am; appropriate to the moment

Nothing more inspiring more potent

No needs no wants ever really matter

If ma’arifatullah – I can understand better

© Najma Ansari

13 December 2006, Rome